Hi FIO
To feel nothing is a blessing sometimes when the the feelings that we are suppose to feel would just be to painful for us to bear.
The sense of detachment from what others see and we expect ourselves to feel is so often that far off track that we lose ourselves trying to always"feel" normal when in fact it is normal to feel up and down. We can`t live without one or the other and it is such a pain that by the time we are down it is so hard to think we will ever get out of that rut. But it will happen that we all start to rise up to conquer the beast that left us there in the first place.
Don`t aim that high to feel happiness/sadness that you feel that you have failed because you have felt none at all but ... For a start feel loved and relieved that people care enough to sit and try to answer some of your questions about life .
so with a I hope you find something that makes you feel among your friends here.