I too question whether or not I am too sensitive or whether or not my father verbally and emotionally abused me. My T says I am too hard on myself and that the things my father said and did were very damaging. I think there is a part of me that didn't want to accept the fact that I came from an abusive, alcoholic family enviornment. To this day my father doesn't get the fact that his words and they way he treats his kids can be cruel and hurtful. Just today I answered his phone call and he was complaining that my sister started crying because he yelled at her for not returning his call in his time frame. She is 50 years old! He had every excuse in the book blaming her. I am just starting to come to terms with the fact that he was abusive. Sometimes when I share in therapy I can see my T's reaction to some of things he said and did. He never sexually or physically beat me, but I to this day still fear him. He alsways said I was too sensitive and I needed to lighten up, boy did I beat myself up over that and blamed me. I think that emotional and verbal abuse is so difficlut to come to terms with because there are no physical scars, just the deep scars that we live with day in day out.
|