You may be more in tune with your emotions, less narcisstic than you think and or believe yourself to be. The fact that you mimic the other's people's feelings when they are sad, no, you may not actually feel sad, but just the mimic-ing speaks for itself, you wish, as you have expressed here, that you did feel something at that point. Also a few times you wished you could feel more, those few times count for something, if not just that you are aware you 'lack' something.

I used to have a component of human intelligence missing in my psyche, an orientation to and understanding of reality. I knew I was missing it ans a few times desired it. Then I went to nursing school and that component of my intelligence TA DAH it was there, all of sudden I could sense reality, not live in my own world as much. I feel complete now.

I think over time, experiences, and loving, you may actually acquire what you feel you lack.

I wouldn't get caught up in diagnosis, just because that is simply an outer indication of something truly inner in nature.

If you are university age, you have your entire life ahead of you, and yes, your certain type of psyche DOES have its advantages! More advantages than a lack of orientation to reality, that's for sure!!

Time is the healer of all things I have found. There is no telling which parts of your personality will sway, bend, or break.

You write with candor and sincerity, I admire your willingness to discuss things, and responding to you has helped _me.