I was told that I had "psycopathic antisocial behavioural problems" 15 years ago along with BPD, schizoeffective and a touch of narcissism.........Recently, there has been slow talk with my T about Aspergers.........a slight case maybe.

As with all things, if there is a label, there is a reason/treatment/understanding...........we are more complex creatures than that. Dx is only a guideline.......we try not to make it a lifestyle.

I have also done horrendous things in my life that I did not have a conscience about until people started doing it to me......or trying and for once I understood the idea of "karma". Also the idea of jail did not appeal to me and I had come dangerously close.

Now I seek only the experience of learning to be human in a way that is spiritually fulfilling and the way I can pay back my karmic cost. I struggle everyday but I am starting to see some of the rewards........I hope the same for you.

You are very aware of how you are........maybe not how you feel?? Feeling is the hardest most complex thing I have ever had to do......but it gets easier, more comfortable and less frightening the more you practice it......

I like my anti-social, misanthropic, loving self.......and once I accepted that, the rage that had dictated my whole life is in better check.

By the way, that personality test that you are taking is incredible......really explained myself to me.

Good luck, babe. My thoughts, on this journey to stillness and acceptance, are with you. As with all of us..........