I can tell you right now, you are not a waste of space. If you feel you need help, then there is no reason in they world you should not get it. And you deserve all of the help that you get. You should quit telling yourself the other people deserve it more then you. Try to start talking more positive talk to yourself. Think of random things good about yourself. It is very hard at times. But sometimes you've just got to do it. And you can make yourself smile.

You are a caring person, and i'm sure many people love you. You do not deserve to be hurt, and I wish you did not think that way.