I know how that feels. For me it lasts an hour, a day or a few weeks.

It's sucks.

It's just teasing you with what you could have.

I dunno if I'm glad or not that it's rare.

I'm quite good at coping with people aroudn when I don't want them to be, particularly when I can't get away. I just go through it a moment at a time. I think, out of all the time I have left, this is only a few hours. Then I can be alone. Right now, what can I be doing?

It's also annoying when people ask if you're okay. It's a trick question. If you say 'no' they smother you, if you say you want to be alone they get hurt and if you say you're fine they go on and on about how you don't look Okay.

I'm lucky, we're not phoners. We're texters and MSN messengers. Those are so easy to ignore. I live too far away for anyone to visit me.

Unfortuanately, CBT taught me that we're supposed to try and hang about with people, even when we don't want to ¬_¬.