Thank you Junerain and Micah for the replies. I know it may sound somewhat odd but as Micah mentioned the rage that dictated their life, I like the rage, the power, etc... . Gives such a rush especially if there's another person/people around feeling it.

I'm not a believer in karma and am not going to pay back any karmatic cost or apologies because what I did I enjoyed and did it for a reason. Any apologies I give are empty and meaningless words that others like to hear (although I do tend to break them and promises a fair bit).

I suppose it would get easier although it's not frightening learning all of it, it's just confusing and many times I just want to quit the therapy because I'm getting nowhere.

Well, I'll do the MMPI-2 test, although how long did it take you to do? I assume 3-5 hours?

Junerain, yes, certain psyches do have their advantages, no arguement there. Time can also be a great healer, although much of the damage I've caused still hasn't worn off of some people yet. Who knows though, it may change for me a bit or a lot. I'm pretty sure I cant go into saying what I've done here but humans and animals have all been targets in the past and present.