This is the best I've been, consistantly, and I can't even do that properly. I hurt people, I hurt myself.

And I just SIed for the first time in months. I've never been much of an SIer. I don't do it deep or often, but I just did it

I think it's my deepest ever, but I'm not sure. And that's still nto saying much. The most blood ever anyway. I can't even SI well enough for my own liking.

It's not even fair to tell my friends.

I cant even be sad properly. I'm playing games and doing my normal things while crying. I jsut dont know what to do.