it's ok. no, it can't get better, just worse. well, it might be able to get somewhat better if i could see a chiropractor, but i don't have any way of doing that. i use a rolling backpack to get my stuff around at school, can't carry all i need to on my back or shoulders. i think it's thrown off the way i carry myself because the chronic pain has spread into my neck. it's frustrating also because i'm young and look physically ok, but have to look out for myself in stuff like getting a seat...

i get to school, but i haven't been getting the work done. i have so much piled up that i just can't work on... my brain feels like mush.

it's frustrating too because i have so much creativity and intelligence, but i can't use them like this. i'm barely functioning. i'm just waiting for everything to fall apart again, and this time there won't be anything to break the fall.