The past month was one the the worst months in my life. I had flashbacks and memories that just wouldn't quit. I had blocked most of my childhood until April 04 after an operation. Then nightmares and flashbacks started. I couldn't put it all together until the last 4 weeks. I now know what happened to me at 11 years old. It is more horrible than I ever imagined. I knew something happen but just didn't know what till now. Now that I know what how do I deal with this crap? I went to Tdoc and Pdoc this week. Tdoc said visualize a container and put all my fb's and awful memories in it so I can take them out one at a time and deal with them. If I could do that I wouldn't need a Tdoc. My Pdoc gave me a new med to help with sleep. I am afraid to sleep. I sleep but not until 4 or 5am then up at 8am. but at least I am sleeping every day now. I just have to take one day at a time. Just when will the flashbacks and memories stop?
ConfusedOne