Now, to get to my real post. I'm too sad to write a bunch right now so I'm gonna keep it short and add to it as we continue talking. I have Asperger's Syndrome, which means I'm a social failure most of the time. For some people, me included, it gets worse in early adulthood, I guess because life is changing and all that.

Anyway, I'm at the point where I'm so depressed and messed up that I can't function normally. I can't get my work done. Not because I'm not intelligent enough or anything like that, but because my emotions get in the way of every other aspect of my life.

And what I meant by the title of this thread, is that even though I obviously don't want any of this to happen to me, if it has to, why now? What I do in early adulthood shapes how the rest of my life will go... and I'm limited in my success right now because I feel terrible mentally all the time.

Assuming that I'm required by destiny or whatever, to go through the worst of this depression at some point in my life, I wish it was not now.

I'm tired of failing socially, I'm tired of being unhappy, and I'm tired of life in general.