it sounds like your mom understands that being around people is hard for you, i see that a plus... being the way you are doesnt make you a freak... i have a lot of problems too you see and i go through periods of time when i think i am a freak or i think i may be going crazy. but i have one really good friend who i always call when i feel down, axiouse, or paranoide and he helps me calm down and see reality again.

i hope everything ends up fine for you and that you are safe tonight...