I feel so bad today. the worst I have felt in a long time. I just feel so hopeless and worthless. I want to change myself. I just want to disappear. I feel like I'm starting to slip back in to bad habbits I wanted to be done with. I wish I could go away. I wish I had some talent. I wish I was a better person. I feel like a waste of space and I just want to stay in my room forever and never leave or talk to anyone. I have no one IRL to talk to. No one understands me. I have a T but I so badly wish I had someone who wasn't being paid to care about me. I am worthless, stupid, ugly, I've been trying to change these things but I still am. I feel so sad.