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Originally Posted by phoenix7
Went fo my EMDR session today - was prepared to face the storm in my head where I keep all the fear, shame, anger, despair and tears that are deep inside only to find my T has gone to a storm of her own
She has gone to give support to those who have lost people and the firefighters in the Bush fires in Victoria - her company have sent a few Psychologists there to help out - which is wonderful - I hope she will be safe - I know she will not be near the fires - they are terrible - people have lost everything - my problems are small in comparision to theirs - its all over the news - people in such pain
Im not coping well - its pathetic - I have a roof over my head and food in the cupboard but I want to curl up and disapear - weak and pathetic  I hate it  tears come to my eyes but wont come out cos Im broken -
ITS PATHETIC!!!!!!!!!!!! - I HATE IT! HATE feeling this - HATE being this way - HATE that I havnt learned anything! HATE being me! - so ungrateful - im so sad and I cant cry - the tears wont come out - what sort of a person CANT CRY!
and I look on Tv and it rips my heart out - if I cant bear their pain at this distance how must it be for them ......
I hope my T is safe - I hope the fires in Victoria go out and the floods in Queensland subside and people can find some peace...
cant do this anymore - going to try and lose myself in sleep... take care P7  |
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I don't cry that often (rarely), but it doesn't mean that I'm not sad.
You've learned plenty. Your dealing with very serious issues that don't just go away overnight, so please remember that and try to be gentle to yourself!
You are not pathetic for feeling pain over your issues. Just because someone else is having issues it doesn't mean your pain is any less understandable or less real.
You are a really good person who is dealing with some very serious stuff.
Please be gentle with yourself and try not to judge yourself by comparing yourself to others. It's not possible to compare lives as one being "more deserving" than another. We all have our experiences and life circumstances.
You are worth every bit of it you know. You are interesting and likable. Don't let depressive thoughts minimize your experience.