Hello reddragon,

please do not feel so bad about what happened. Most of it was NOT your fault, but rather more a typical incident as it happens often in social forums. Something is posted, some users misunderstand or misinterpret the posting - and the whole thing spins off with unbelievable dynamics of its own.

As I see it, this can happen to everyone who actively uses a online forum. So this is nothing specially connected to you, reddragon. Therefore it is DEFINITELY NOT a question of fault! You made a little mistake, as could happen to anyone. But that is no big issue at all.

Please do not make it a all-or-nothing-matter. The "problem" has been discussed, thread closed, game over and out. Nobody will look back on that anymore. So, everything is fine again! No need for self-accusations. Relax.

Reddragon, not everyone has the strength to admit own mistakes, but you have shown that strength. So you are not at all as bad as you see yourself (as it seems to me). On the contrary: I have the impression that you are a responsible person and not willingly doing harm to anyone.

And I don't think you are cursed. I understand that there may be and will be reasons why you have become used to think in that way of yourself. But you do not deserve to treat yourself so rude. There is more good in you than you might feel or know. Something made you loose trust in yourself, I guess. I hope you will find a way back to your inner core, which cannot be corrupted or cursed, never. I have the impression you are not lost and will find your way. Do not give up. You seem to have the inner strength and your heart is in the right place.

I wish you a good recovery from the recent stress,
bluenarciss