I have the urge to cut so bad... I have the urge to do more!
But, I did it... I made it happen.

I used to have a favourite film... and there is a beautiful song in it. I love that song... it meant a lot to me too and I just listened to it. I burst into tears and I felt like my heart had been ripped out. I've never had so much emotion RIP through my body that sudden (well... not since a certain event). But I didn't stop listening... couldn't turn it off... I'm torturing... SUFFOCATING myself with thoughts and feelings.
I just don't want to handle life anymore. I don't see a point. I'm sorry for being so negative.

I have so many feelings, just hopping from one to the other in split seconds... ANGER, hatred, loss, love, emptiness, abandonment..... PAIN!

I have it in my hand and I don't want to put it down
My hearts racing