ok well i know i havent posted in a while but i really just need to get this out.

today my "friend" and i were talking and got in a fight about my si-ing and other bad habits(drugs) and she told me "your full of ***** you know that,a real fu<k up. you fu<k with my life and you fu<k with other peoples lives and its just one big fu<ked-up mess that you create."
well i got to thinking and shes right. i am a fu<k up and all i do is fu<k up peoples lives. i mean if this is all i do than why do i bother staying alive?theres no real point if my parents dont care and i dont have any friends left.im sorry im just rambling on.

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