I don't have a therapist anymore.. Alec, my old one is a perverted tw*t and Isobel.. My cpn, hasn't got in touch with me for ages..

So.. I don't know what to do.. I cut last night in the end, dissociated again because too much stuff got on top of me.. One of my friends OD'd, one of them was crying their heart out to me, another was worrying about how to win a girl over.. And all of them were asking me to help them and I needed to.. I had to.. I knew they needed me, otherwise why would they have come to me?

I almost OD'd again Connor's being there for me.. Understanding now.. he said he can live with me SI'ing, just as long as we work on making it better *sob* i just can't take much more of this, I really can't

And now I have no-one to help me, therapists.. No-one.. The only people I have that help are the people here.

I'm so fed up of feeling alone, weighted down.. In pain