You've learned plenty. Your dealing with very serious issues that don't just go away overnight, so please remember that and try to be gentle to yourself!

You are not pathetic for feeling pain over your issues. Just because someone else is having issues it doesn't mean your pain is any less understandable or less real.

You are a really good person who is dealing with some very serious stuff.
Please be gentle with yourself and try not to judge yourself by comparing yourself to others. It's not possible to compare lives as one being "more deserving" than another. We all have our experiences and life circumstances.

You are worth every bit of it you know. You are interesting and likable. Don't let depressive thoughts minimize your experience.