Hi phoenix7,

this must have been more than only disappointing to find out that this very important EMDR session had to be canceled.
I would have felt a sound irritation, too. We cannot simply shrug when something is of so central relevance for us. Your frustration must have been rather deep.
On the other side, your T had acceptable reasons to follow the call for help in Victoria, as you rationally understand. But emotionally you got involved in a struggle.

Let me say that I don't see any reason at all for you to feel bad about your frustration and (maybe) anger.
To me it seems not to be necessary to compare the needs of the bushfire-victims with yours. They have their serious problems, and you have yours.

And there will come the time to help you with yours, and your T will then be there for you, and for you only. I can see that it must be hard to be patient now. But finally, I think, everything will come out well.

Anyway, I think it was good that you vented your thoughts. I hope the answers here gave you a little comfort and strength.

Don't fight yourself for things you have not caused, btw. These fires and the mission of your T are things no one could have foreseen or changed. Things like these happen simply. The best would be to get over it quickly and not giving anyone guilt for it, at the very least yourself!

Hold on,
bluenarciss