...falling ...getting behind... sliding back down the dark hole. how can things change so fast from "feeling cared for" to being isolate, alone, depressed, and without resources" again?
everything's piling up, homework, trying to meet govt needs so my basic needs can be met... even tho i know ppl are pulling for me, my tenious hold is slipping and now i feel i can't reach out more - be even more needy - they've done so much for me already. i just have to ... let go and see if i can float a bit on my own in these huge waves crashing over me.