i took david to the VA Emerg.Room very early this morning. he was given priorty treatment. the two psych docs in the ER were wonderful to me. david was baker act-ed, 302, which means involuntary committment to assure the safety of himself and others. if he escapes from the psych ward (he has done this before), VA will call the police and when dave is found, he will be returned to VA. so a 302 can be a good thiing and in dave's case at the present it was an excellent decision by the pdocs.
he will probably be given an intensive case management, instead of the mainstream treatment. all docs will consult each other about everything regarding david's care at VA. right now he is very mentally ill but i feel they will do the right thing to get him better. they assured me he will not be released from the hospital until he is stable and on effective meds. they said there is no rush to push him out of the hospital until a positive result is reached and observed.
i am mentally and physically exhausted but had to reply to you all. you don't know how much your posts mean to me...each one of you...thank you so very, very much. i had written such a long post i wasn't sure if anyone would read it. my faith in mankind-you all- has been renewed.
i feel fragile right now with my BPD and anxiety disorder but hopefully a good nights rest will restore my good mental health. i am a spiritual person too and i know a higher power got me this far. i will continue to rely on that too. if those you that are spiritual too would please pray for me and david right now i'd appreciate it. i believe in the power of prayer.
david has directed all his "anger" and aggression towards me. they said in his state of mind he could have harmed me badly and never remembered it. i already knew that but i was spared. in his state of mind he declared to everyone at VA that i was bipolar, he lived with me to help me with my mental illness, and that i was in AA. the BPD and AA are private things to me altho i am not ashamed of either dx. i have addressed both problems/diseases/conditions, accepted what i need to do to arrest the conditions, and done just that. i am proud of who i have become. it did hurt me tho, even tho i know he is ill and i have done nothing to hurt him, that his anger was so venomous towards me. it makes me doubt myself. something i haven't experienced for a long time. i know it's irrational but it is eating at me.
schizophrenia can be a horrible disease. we/the family and i know dave will never get anywhere near normal. we have accepted that fact altho it makes one want to try to create a miracle nevertheless.
i came home, ate half of half gallon of chocolate ice cream, and then sat down to write you all. words cannot express the love and support you all have given me and david.
will keep u all posted on any new developments...when my spirit is restored i will go after that ALF woman. i will not flinch from this responsibility i have been given to help others still living there and to put not only her out of business but to put other care facilities on notice: the public is watching. don't harm people who have been entrusted to your care.
if later i can manage to caretake david and be an advocate for families finding themselves in this situation, i will do it! now i can say i totally relate to this wrongdoing. perhaps there is greater "plan" still to be accomplished.
thank you pc friends...thank you...