In session with my T last week I finally shared my first memory of abuse. It was horrible, I could hardley get it out, there was lots of silence. I couldn't add the details, just basics. I ended up feeling so sick and had the worst headache. I was completely drained.
I think she could tell because she asked me if I needed her to bring me back. Then we laid off the convo and started talking about something else.
Well, I went home and I was ok after a little while. But two days later I was spiraling and was not sure why, it came out of nowhere. To the point that I emailed her, (because I don't have the nerve to call her). I told her that I really need to talk about something light for awhile until I get settled into this semester of school, as the semester just started. I am doing pscyh clinicals this semester and emotionally, I need to be the best I can to help the patients.
She responded to my email with a 24/7 hotline number and told me that I could call her the next day and talk, (that I didn't do). She also told me that we could talk about whatever we wanted this week.

My question is, is it normal to spiral after sharing about childhood SA? I have never really shared this info with people. Two days after doing so, I felt fearful and anxious for no reason that I know of. It was a feeling that I was not very comfortable with, and the thoughts that came with it were not enjoyable , I didn't want to share those unpleasant thoughts with my T either.