I don't think you ever "get over" a miscarriage. It's so beyond your control. I think you learn to live with it, think of it less perhaps. But on a perfectly sunny day, for no reason other than the wind is blowing it'll hit you. I think how hard it hits you varies on the factors involved, but I've never met a woman yet that has suffered this loss and has fully recovered.

I remember the day, time, and year. I remember the people that took care of me, both those that were kind and those that just didn't care. There's not much I don't remember about that day.

You're not alone, but that doesn't make it any easier. I'm sure the fact that you had to deal with this entirely on your own without a support system at the time has left that wound very raw. I am so sorry for your loss.