Hi there everyone...it's been so long since i have been on here. I just got a new laptop and now i have some privacy.
I can't sleep...i have been haveing flashbacks like crazy last night and today. I finally got on the computer and found someone to talk to. I feel a little better...still shaking and teary eyed...but i think i can make it through the day.
I do have a question though. My dad is supposed to go to counseling with me on Wednesday which is tomorrow. He wants to learn ways he can help and understand things better. I am wondering if it would be rude if I asked him to wait another week before he goes so i can discuss things with my counselor? I don't know...i don't really know what to do.
I have been having flashbacks about the men i have been with and what some have done to me. I feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself for what i let happen. I feel i let it happen because i could have said no louder for him to stop. It was consentual at first but then i 5:40 in the morning...still morning for me. I don't know what to do...anyone with any suggestions would be appreciated.
Thanks for listening