[quote=Sher8907;942080]I didn't go through with it, because honestly it does scare me, but the overcoming urge to do so scares me even more.

Again, good for you that you decided to make a different choice -

It sounds like you have some painful things that are going on.

Cutting is about comforting ourselves and not letting other people get close enough to help us. It's a punishment for something we think we deserve. You don't deserve this, life is coming at you and dealing with it is hard.

The fact that you want to hurt yourself should might be an opportunity to see the huge neon sign - It's ok to get your needs met and find someone to talk to about this.

Overcoming the urge is hard and scary b/c it indicates that you might need to feel whatever is there but again you can do this. If you are in school you might want to think about finding a person there. In high school I needed someone to talk to and it ended up being a teacher that took the time to listen. I just talked to her a few times but it did help.

I hope that you decide to keep us posted and find someone to talk to about this. It really can help. Please don't dismiss the intensity of your feelings, things are already hard, you just don't have to add to them but hurting yourself.