Coconut,

It sounds like you gave your t a pretty clear indication that you're not ready to "go there," and I think that's OK. Maybe you haven't developed enough trust yet to share it, or don't feel safe enough to let yourself be vulnerable by exposing your pain. It will happen when the time is right. Perhaps t made a mistake by pushing too hard. I would guess that they probably realize this now and will take it slower. I hope you go to your session. Just be honest and tell them you feel. You and t can find the right pace that will enable you to work through your issues without overwhelming you.