hi,
I'm just curious if anyone else experiences their hallucinations like this:
The voices i hear, for the most part are internal.
There's two kinds.
One of them sounds like someone has implanted a microphone inside my brain and is turning up and down the volume on it now and then. But mostly, i hear voices in my mind..kind've the way one would hear their own thoughts, but they are not my thoughts. they are the thoughts/voices of other people and i have no control over them. Usually it is just mumbling and it is hard to understand. They have conversations with themselves and each other and sometimes they will comment on me and what im doing and thinking.

Also, a lot of my visual hallucinations are internal as well. It's like there is a TV screen inside of my head (it's not quite the same as the way someone sees their own thoughts) usually, i'll see things that are really unexplainable, out-of-this-world, and bizaar. Sometimes i see weird pictures of other people, or places, or gaping wounds with blood and such. Usually these internal visions come when i am in the dark or when my eyes are closed, but sometimes they come when my eyes are open and im in the light.
I have external visual hallucinations too..but not very severe. Mostly just seeing shadows out of the corners of my eyes or dark spots that look like bugs all over the wall and flying through the air. I also see objects and the walls and such moving- Like they are changing shape/breathing/pulsing/and flowing.

Then i also have all kinds of weird body feelings:
-can't tell where my arms hands legs are
-cant tell where the world starts and my body stops--everything just seems to flow together
-my body feels all distored and mixed up (the way a picaso painting looks)
-Dont recognize my own body parts-they feel alien and detatched from me
-my face changes
-other people's faces look weird

..these past couple months, i have felt other people possessing/inhibiting my body. I feel them move inside of me and take over my mind and such.

thanks for reading

-becka