Thank you for the replies.....

Mouse - I liked your insight, and that is a interesting way to think of it. It is good to know I'm not the only one who feels microscopic. It will be hard to be patient while I get to know her, but maybe that's what I need to do and it will be more comfortable .

Sannah - I'm not sure what my gut says. I have a hard time trusting my judgement lately since it was my poor judgement that led me into an abusive relationship and then also to my first T who betrayed my trust. I don't really think I'm good at judging people at all......

Pegasus - I kind of feel like this T is my last hope for working on my issues. She's the only T I have found that specializes in the issues I am dealing with and is also in my insurance network. (I can't afford to pay out of pocket). I guess the desparation that led me to her is probably not very healthy, and may make it hard for me to judge if she is the right T for me.
She seems to understand my issues, and I guess the reason she stares at me is because I am sitting right across from her. .......I wonder if maybe I am being oversensitive? -- I don't know where else I would want her to look. And sometimes she looks away because she jots down notes and sips her water or tea or whatever it is. Maybe she is just trying to read my body language??? I don't know. I can't help feeling really uncomfortable though, especially during silences. I guess I feel a lot of pressure to say the 'right' thing, or to be very insightful.