Thank you all for your shared experience and advise.
It was scary and makes me not even want to go back. Im glad that she is allowing me to talk about whatever I want tomorrow.

I have no idea what happened. I have always been the type to be in control of everything that I possibly can. When I say spiraling, I mean I felt sort of out of control, I had to do a lot of self talking. The problem is, it hasn't been like that for so long and my first thoughts were, I can not go back to how I was. I just can't go through that fear and anxiety again. It was trecherous.

I am trying to figure out why this happened; perhaps I just had too much going on at once, class just starting, psych at that, including clinicals, new relationship, then sharing something I had never shared with my T. I am hoping thats all it was. I think I just need to take this slow, I want to deal with it but I also need to keep myself together to get through my last 10 months of school. That in itself involves a large amount of stress.

I just hate this, I hate being an adult and feeling like a child at times. I try so hard to intellectualize everything; I know there are some things that I just need to ride out but I usually end up attacking myself instead about how stupid it is because I am an adult and shouldn't be letting this bother me. Ugh....sometimes I so wish I never opened up...