Thanks Peaches
Seems my mind felt there was a quota of only so much one can reach out to T and that I have maxed it. Really wanted to call t at midnight when things were getting scary (i know she's up at that hour) but I couldn't. I just muscled through. But I do feel really rundown and ill. been in bed for 12 hours. Well, at least I see T tomorrow and then the Dr the next day.