ccavic, hi...

Thank you for sharing with us. It really does take a lot of courage to take that first step...
It was hard for me to do it, also. I hated myself and my life because everything was so out of control.

Are there NA meetings where you live?
You'll get support here with us and with people you would meet there.
Please give it serious thought, ccavic. There is a sweeter way to live than being beaten down by the demon we call addiction.

Another thank you and this is from my heart.
Your honest post helps me stay sober and clean. It reminds me of what I left behind, and what I am grateful for today.
I am fiercely protective of being clean and sober. I came very close to being a statistic added to others who died from making bad choices.
I am so familiar with the FI Syndrome, and the dangers of not seeking a remission from it...

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
If you are comfortable doing it, start your own thread so we can reply directly to you. Having your own thread makes it easier to keep up and to reread the replies.
Helps you and it helps us...

We Care
Cap