Hello. I'm sorry I have been so quiet. I am a little afraid of coming here. I know that sounds funny. Odd. But I guess it is because there are people here with DID and I don't know... It frightens me. I don't want to have that. I sort of don't believe it is true, but I also know it must be. I guess I am just going round and round quite a bit. And it is really hard that I don't have anyone IRL to talk to about it. My p-doc terminated me and we are still waiting to see whether the funding is going to be approved for me to see a t. Maybe I have gone into denial a little bit because I am finding it hard to cope.

Has anyone missed quite a bit of time
A few days
Then 'woken up'
Kind of kind of
Having forgotten who one is
Ones name
Where one lives
'What one is supposed to be doing
What one is supposed to be up to?
Thats what happened to me.
Came around in hospital with no idea how I got in
And security asking me who I was and how I got in there
And me asking for my p-doc
(who terminated me a little while before)
Only being able to remember his name.
It was frightening
Confusing
But strangely comforting too.
It came back to me over the week.
We did a lot of swinging
And walking around the lake
There is a little one
(who I am very afraid of)
Who likes that very much indeed.

I do hope the funding comes through.
Sorry for having been so quiet.
I will get there.
Thanks everyone for welcoming me
And answering my question about little ones.