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greenidentity · Feb 10, 2009, 07:33 PM

Hello! I wanted to come here to inquire about BPD. I know that self diagnosis is dangerous, but in my recent quest for myself, I feel as ifI meet almost every single symptom of BPD, and possibly some of Oppositional Defiance disorder. The strongest ones are:

-Lack of self
-Constant vaccilating between emotions and opinion on self identity-one day I'm ok, the next I'm a wreck and have no idea who or what I am.
-I can have somewhat successful relationships, but since I question things so much, they can be stressful for the other person since I bounce back and forth with being ok/ not being ok with any given thing in my life.
-Anger at friends and family when I feel abandonded or slighted, sometimes irrational
-Impulsivity: drinking, smoking, eating for comfort
-Constant feelings of emptiness, sadness e.t.c.
-Extreme feelings of being misunderstood and alienated from people
-Feeling as if something is constantly wrong with me, so much that it affects the way I interact with people--feeling inferior or bad.
-Excessivly defensive and protective of myself
-Needs to dominate conversation

I know this isnt a place to be diagnosed, but I just wanted to list some of my symptoms. I also have ADHD and mild anxiety (diagnosed) so I'm sure that's where some of those come from.

*sigh* I feel like such a mess sometimes. I wish i could just be "normal" or at least like I am understood by people. Please share your own stories, or advice.

Thanks