it makes perfect sense - body memories and things that hover in the mist just out of reach can be painful and hard to deal with - half the time I want to remember everything just to get it over with and the rest of the time I dont want it back - because i dont think i could deal with it

- my old T once said to me - "we will face this together" that made me feel I could go there and survive - unfortunately those sessions ended before my memories came back - they stil mostly havnt - I hope you feel safe with your T - I hope that the memories come when T is there to support you either in person or by phone - email - whatever works

most of all I hope you feel better soon P7