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Originally Posted by Simcha
KTGIRL 
I think your T sounds caring so far. Just take it at your own pace, and don't be afraid to tell your T if you feel uncomfortable sometimes, that way she can be more attuned to your needs (because EVERYONE is different).
It can FEEL like scrutiny when it's not if you get that kind of attention suddenly after revealing something so personal--- but it's not scrutiny, and you aren't being judged. I honestly think she just wants to help you and make sure your safe from the sounds of it.
Take care, and be good to yourself. You made an important step forward when you were so honest and open with your new T so quickly. It will probably not always be easy, but share with your T how you feel--don't just relay events. You deserve someone to care about you, and this T sounds like she's making sure you are looked out for.
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TY Simcha -
I really needed to hear these things you wrote.
I never thought about it in the way that you put it - that she is supposed to care about me. I have thought about her more in terms of someone who is expecting me to say the right things....the difficult things.....so that I can get to the point of healing. So I put a lot of pressure on myself to disclose as much as I can even if I am uncomfortable with it, because I think that is what is expected of me......because I think by disclosing things that I will get to the point at which healing occurs.
She asked me how my symptoms were and so I told her about the SI.
I think you're right - that's why I felt so closely scrutinized and
judged.
Maybe I disclosed too much too soon, before I was comfortable.
I suppose I'll get the hang of this......eventually.