I SO agree with this. Recently, T and I were talking about a really specific thing that happened to me when I was little, and he asked me a specific question (where did she hit you) and I LIED (!!!) to make it sound less bad, because little me wanted it to not be as bad as it was. And I was trained VERY well to "NEVER tell" and it's really hard to push past that. So then I shut down completely. Just like you are talking about...

I did e-mail T and told him that I didn't tell the truth - and he e-mailed back and said that when we are ready to talk about things we talk about them, and when we are not ready, we don't, and it is OKAY. I felt so much better.

Maybe it's just not time, coconut. It will be. It doesn't have to be now.