I am a new poster.....looking for objective support.
Last week my daughter (who is 18) came home and announced she was pregnant. She has just finished high school and works part time at a shoe store...she has no real prospects..her boyfriend comes from a precarious family and has no prospects either...(his parents are elated about the news)...they all plan to purchase a townhouse together and let the happy couple live in the basement...
My husband and I barely speak....intimacy is a thing of the past....we had reached a "comfortable" area of co-existance and were beginning to search for some sort of happiness if you will...
I work part time as a preschool teacher and go to school part time....my mother had a dibilitating stroke 2 years ago and I assist my father in caring for her.
I work out 6 days a week...cardio/weight training/pilates/yoga...all the good stuff...I take my vitamins and supplements.........my prescription meds for depression/anxiety and insomnia.....i read the Dalai Lama and try to be positive and happy...I eat healthy (avoiding the white processed chemical food)....I don't drink or smoke or do recreational drugs...I strive for honestly and fairness........but it is a huge sham...the demons hover and I struggle internaly every single day...my co-workers would describe me as a happy-go-lucky environmentalist who believes in justice for all...inside I scream..."when do I get a break? heal yourselves!!!!!" and then I feel guilty...............