hi sled chick, so glad to see your post. can you contact your doctor about what's going on? i know you are struggling with the drug use and the pain. you are making an effort and sometimes we slip and fall. the choices we make impact our lives, jme. i'm here for you if you feel comfotable pm-ing me. it's a day at a time. yesterday is gone forever. we all only have "today". try to get medical help for the physical problems and you can advise the doc that you want to try to use medicines that will relieve the pain but not cause the other prob to manifest itself thru drug use. please keep us posted. we are here for u and support you.