yes, it makes sense. i hear what you are saying.

i think that this is something to talk about and explore.

sexual abuse does not turn someone gay.

but there are is also that element of being attracted to those pple we feel most safe with. and if you don't feel safe with men, becasue of the abuse then...

so i can see where your confusion & questioing comes from.

I cannot answer or solve your questions, but wanted you to know that what you are saying makes sense to me.