I've made an appointment for first thing tomorrow morning.. I'm going to be exhausted.. I'm weak today as it is.. I've never been like this, I've never starved myself so severely :/ But this time, I'm keeping tight to it and no-one's going to break me down..

I told Alec about my dissociating, in an email.. I'm seeing him today so he's going to question me like crazy, knowing I'm holding a lot more back thanm he thinks I am.. *sigh* what'll I do? :/ I'm confsued and weak and tired. I woke up this morning feeling quite refreshed, but I dissociated again last nigth and veryt nearly cut again.. God.. I'm shaking so much i can barely type properly. It's annoying .

Let's just hope the dr can help me with the fainting and feleing sick and such.