(((4everlonely)))so very sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. i used to say i am only breathing air. i got into therapy and dealt with these so very lonely, depairing thoughts. later i was able to re-start my life, learned to make friends that supported and cared about me just as i was/am, had no supportive family either but my friends have filled up my life with so much joy. my son is still in my life but he is the only family member that i truly relate to and i know he cares.
feeling that you are living your life alone can be so very lonely. are u in therapy? that has made the most impact on my recovery from my depression and feeling like life had passed me by. once trust was extablished with my T and pdoc i knew i was never alone anymore because they were always there for me. they helped me regain HOPE. it was a big step of course and baby steps thereafter..leaning new ways to cope with life, learning to not fear, learning to feel safe making caring friends, learning how to know which friends to choose, etc.
i hope anything i've written here may ring a bell with you. most importantly i hope you find some hope for yourself in what i've posted. i was at the very end of my rope when i reached out to the T and pdoc and gained the life i know now.
please keep us posted on how your doing. we truly care.