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Thank you Kindergirl and Melissa for responding. I am so sorry you two have to go through this crap. I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy. Can I ask if you two have grounding technique? Now that I know what happened to me what do I do now? How do you have a normal life? Can you trust people?
Getting to the hear and now is getting harder and harder with flashbacks. I feel so alone in this. I am bipolar but most of the time I stay depressed. I am on trileptal and ativan and symbyax. Even on that I am afraid to sleep usually crash between 2 to 4am. God I hope there are no more memories I have to see. They were blocked for 40 years for a reason. I can't handle this crap. I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. At 60 my life is over anyway.
ConfusedOne
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