I know how hard it is to feel that you are a worthwhile person. It goes against everything you believe to be true. But feeling worthless and deserving punishing and actually being a worthless person are not the same thing, no matter how much you may feel that they are.
One thing that I try when I'm being especially mean to myself is to imagine that I'm talking to a friend who is feeling the same things as me. I would never dream of being as nasty to a friend as I am to myself.
It is hard but, when things are as bad as they are, surely anything is worth a try, even if you dont think you deserve it??

Take care of you

*Willow*