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Originally Posted by Sled Chick
Madisgram...thank you for your reply. I am under a doctors care . My meds for pain are not the problem for me. I hate them and only use them when I have to. They bother my stomach and I really am not one for slowing down anyway. My problem is I like to go fast! And I been using coke for 10 years..Capp, I suspect you are right.Real life is starting to seep in and I'm not at all comfortable with it. I am in extreem pain today all over. Just took an antimflamatory that will help a bit. I do feel a little cheerier this morning. Sigh... If I could just move.  |
((Sled Chick))
Truly, I am sorry for the physical pain.
I have two chronic health issues, and can relate to the misery of the body that fogs the brain.
When my numbness started giving way to deeply hidden feelings, it scared the bejubies out of me...along with an OS attitude.
But I had to make a choice to go back to using or keep plodding along. Either way was not going to be simple or easy. Going back was a matter of life or my death; yet plodding along felt just as crappy.
Daily, I make that choice.
Please, please keep posting. It can help you focus on the feelings coming out, and there is a commitment to yourself.
Plus, it helps me stay clean and sober.
I remember so well the feeling of being one raw nerve...
If you are comfortable with it, PM me or another member with good time in staying sober/clean. Chats are great, too.
Know that we care about you, Sled Chick.
Cap
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