okay, so i don't come to this part of the forum THAT often just because it does trigger me. but ive been going crazy recently. its like SI is taking over my life. its all i can think about when im upset, and the thought doesnt go away till i do something about it. and now whenever im sitting in class or just looking around, i look at other peoples wrists and arms and see if they have cuts, i dunno why i do that. its just like cutting is everyyywhereee. and when i see that people dont have any marks on them....im like why do i do this? why cant i stop? i just dont get it. its frustrating. alright, enough of my ranting