Is having BPD or a different diagnosis truly 'negative?' If you read our experiecnes and times here at PC, we are all beautiful, insightful people with a lot to offer, with big, big hearts and a lot of creativity.
As far as 'normal..' what is that? I do believe normal does not exist, the normal 'police' is the term for feeling pressure to be normal, yet, in fact normal does not truly exist.
You SHOULD feel enlightened, I agree, what a positive feeling to have, to own, that you discovered these truths on your own, way to go.
If I may share, I did NOT have the opportunity to ponder what my diagnosis was, I was mental health arrested on the side of the road before my car was totaled by all the cars behind it, I had left it out of gas SMACK in the middle of a busy highway.
Acting like things are o.k., yes, we all do that, but it can get tiring..NO ONE has things o.k. in their lives, no one is perfect...I enjoy going to see my T, crying if I have to, showing my 'woundedness...' it is so freeing