Hi all,

Thank you everyone for your replys. When are relationship first began to be sexual we were only together like that for a couple of days out of the month due to my buzy schedual. I think that gave him the wrong idea of what our relationship was going to be like because when we did have those couple of days together we mainly spent them in bed. He has a very strong sexual drive.

I am not overally attracted to men and that is part of the problem, I just thought because I loved him it wouldn't matter.

My parents were no unaffectionate towards eachother but they had an aray of other issues..abuse ect..

I almost hate men... no I lie I do hate them. I know its irrational and I really try with hubby, but my hatred runs deep.

He loves me alot... he has made many sacrafices and put up with more of his share for me, I just want to be able to let him initiate sex and go through with it without making him feel like a bad person.

When I seep into my depression my sex drive is just non existent.

Hormones? I hav a dr appt on the 3rd of march so I will definately bring that up.

anyway.. Thank you everyone for just listening.

alas