I have been breaking out in hives lately. The scratching is getting out of hand. I made myslelf bleed today.

And then I went out and bought SI tool.

And now i've taken a tripple dose of anti-A to keep from using this tool to self-injure.

I am hoping it knocks me out for a long, long time. And without my usual tortured sleep. Just a long, long black out.

I haven't cut in a few years.
This is not good, right?