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I struggle with anger too. It's toxic for me and I don't allow myself to feel it. You do. You are allowing yourself to feel your anger and in therapy you can explore where it is coming from.

I agreee with EM and Simcha. As with my shutting down episode, I'm sure T sees your anger as an opportunity to go deeper, to move toward healing, to explore you. I'm sitting here dreading going to T tomorrow. I was thinking about whether he feels bad for me for what I went through on Monday. I think I wanted him to feel bad for me. But then, from his perspective, it's progress. I'm sure he is thinking "I'm finally getting somewhere with coconut". I'm with you, you feel angry, you acted out. I felt hurt, I shut down. That's how we see it from the client's perspective. They see it differently. They see it as opportunities to move the process along. Trust the process remember. I don't think you have anything to be concerned about. Who has not left messages or sent emails we wish we could take back. Plus Ts are like MC says, the understanding, good enough parents who are there for us.